但愿人长久，千里共婵娟

在回英国的前夕，我的心情很沉重。

转眼间，两个月的时间就这样过去了。

在这两个月里所遇见的人，事，物， 都带给我无比的满足。

在英国压抑了一整年，如今回到斗湖，想要做的事情， 几乎都已经一一达成了。

今年回来，我感觉我的想法，生活的重心， 都有所调整。

家人一年比一年更重要了。

毕竟已经快22岁了， 不知道能够陪家人多久，

但是我们彼此都知道， 我们很关心彼此， 很注重彼此的想法，

真的很希望多孝顺父母， 多陪陪姐姐和妹妹。

但是亲情对我而言， 无论陪了多久，终究是不足够的， 人总是贪心的。

每一次的重逢都预言着再次的离别， 而离别总是忧伤的。

三年了， 三次的分开，我仍然还是不能够抵挡眼泪决堤。

在这夜深人静的晚上，

我努力地告诉自己，不要把离别看得太重。

不要一直挥舞着双手，想要努力握住些什么，

因为有些东西，它其实一直都在心里。

把手放开，把心情放轻松，

也许我能得到的， 会更多。。。

假如

我对自己的生命有很多假设性的问题，

假如我是一个很会唱歌的人，

假如我是一个很会运动的人，

假如我是一个不怕害羞的人，

假如我会说另外一个语言，

假如我不是华人，

假如我不是马来西亚人，

假如我，不是现在的我，

我会更快乐吗？

假如。。。。。。

有时候

有时候很想呐喊，

以为把心肺都喊出来了，

自己就会想通，

事情就会变得不一样。

有时候很想幻想，

想象我可以变得很渺小，

这样就不会有人在乎我做了些什么，

或没有做些什么。

My Infinite Whining Site

Yes, the only reason that I am here is because I wanna grumble and there's no other places better than my own blog to do this.

As Uk stidents should know, life has been tough, I mean literally, T O U G H.

It's bad enough to have exam, and it has to be THE exam, u know, the FINAL YEAR exam.

Ok, as if that is not the worst thing ever, I am down with flu,

and I overslept (well, not late to the exam that kinda oversleep but still that causes quite a chao to me, early in the morning, so yea... I overslept).

And then the exam was tough, not that I didnt expect tht coming, but still, it's something worth grumbing about.

Oh yea, n then I got a msg from Lihtyng that one of the gene that I am working on for my final year project is actually the same gene to the other one that I was doing

(for those of you who might wanna know more, I was working on eNOS, iNOS, HSP70 and HSP 72. It turns out that HSP72 belongs to a family of Heat Shock Protein. And guess what, the name of the protein family is HSP70. ) I mean what the heck, after all these time that I've spent on working on the project and doing all the background reading and I didn't even realized that??!! Screw it! or better still, screw ME!

Now I am dreading the moment when I have to meet John and I can already imagine his face: Jin, care to explain how this could happen? *stern but still with a fake smile* ><

Okay, enough with all the self-pitying and whining. I should better get back to revision. I've got Clinical Chem to worry about on Thurs. If only I've got better brain cells to accommodate all the infinite details that I have to memorize. Fingers crossed that God will show some mercy and let me write the 3 essays on Thurs like an author plz!

Till then, annyeong!