One Precious Night Off

Finally get one night off from all the hassles tassels trying to catch up with deadline and hectic lab work. Had a good sleep from around 5pm till 9pm. (I even skipped the lecture in fact ;)) It was more like a knock out instead, like I just passed out, literally, after getting just 5hrs of sleep everyday, Monday to Thurs.

This whole week seemed so slow yet so fast. Loads of things happened, shitty stuffs mostly. Got turned down by a few institutes for my PhD applications. Was kindda expecting that but still, can't help feeling disappointed. It made me starts to doubt myself if I'm really that 'not good' (hate to say that I'm bad, lol) that no one wants me for a PhD. *sobs* Am actually starting to doubt if PhD is the right cup of tea for me.

N then there was my introduction write-up for my final year report, which I was kindda lost in d middle of no where, n the comments I got for that were mostly bad as well, 'off-track', 'you need to stay focus on your project aim', bla bla bla. It's frustrating, considering all d work that I'd put in. Something that Jialih quoted from Mike (his supervisor) made me pondered a very true fact: 'Shit happens, it happens to everyone, but for some people, they just have more shits, n there's a reason behind.' That's very true yet the same time very depressing. Perhaps I wouldn't encounter all these setbacks if I'd have worked harder in the first place. After all, final year is no funny joke at all. Stress level is up, baby!

Anyway, the only think that sort of brightened up my day a bit would be my turtle neck jacket that I ordered from eBay. It arrived on Thursday all d way from Korea. Claps for that. Was relieved that the size fits well on me and the quality was as expected. Or else, this would turn into another crap on a pile of shit that is already stinky enough for the week.

Anyway, enough with all the whiny moaning. Gonna enjoy this precious one night off and am not gonna do anything except movies on bed. Used to do this all the time last year but only come to appreciate it when I only get to do this once in a very very very blue moon nowadays.

Am hoping to get a better next week. Fingers crossed that my project will go well and someone would take me for a PhD. SOMEONE PLEASEEEEE. *pity face*

Thought of the Day

Muslims who want to live under Islamic Sharia law were told on Wednesday to get out of Australia , as the government targeted radicals in a bid to head off potential terror attacks..


Separately, Rudd angered some Australian Muslims on Wednesday by saying he supported spy agencies monitoring the nation's mosques. Quote:
'IMMIGRANTS, NOT AUSTRALIANS, MUST ADAPT. Take It Or Leave It. I am tired of this nation worrying about whether we are offending some individual or their culture. Since the terrorist attacks on Bali , we have experienced a surge in patriotism by the majority of Australians. '

'This culture has been developed over two centuries of struggles, trials and victories by millions of men and women who have sought freedom'

'We speak mainly ENGLISH, not Spanish, Lebanese, Arabic, Chinese, Japanese, Russian, or any other language. Therefore, if you wish to become part of our society . Learn the language!'

'Most Australians believe in God. This is not some Christian, right wing, political push, but a fact, because Christian men and women, on Christian principles, founded this nation, and this is clearly documented. It is certainly appropriate to display it on the walls of our schools. If God offends you, then I suggest you consider another part of the world as your new home, because God is part of our culture.'

'We will accept your beliefs, and will not question why. All we ask is that you accept ours, and live in harmony and peaceful enjoyment with us.'

'This is OUR COUNTRY, OUR LAND, and OUR LIFESTYLE, and we will allow you every opportunity to enjoy all this. But once you are done complaining, whining, and griping about Our Flag, Our Pledge, Our Christian beliefs, or Our Way of Life, I highly encourage you take advantage of one other great Australian freedom, 'THE RIGHT TO LEAVE'.'


'If you aren't happy here then LEAVE. We didn't force you to come here. You asked to be here. So accept the country YOU accepted.'

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P/S: Currently exhausted from all the hassles in life. But couldn't resist to post this email that I received. My stand is in between. Things do not have to be this ugly. We don't see problem like this in a daily basis because usually tolerance of two sides would solve the problem. In this case, one party pushed their luck too far that the government decided that they have enough with tolerating people with no gratitude.

Nonetheless, such is social issue that it is debatable. I don't know. To me, peace always comes first, but when defence is necessary, peace should be overridden.

如果我变成回忆

如果我变成回忆

退出了这场生命

留下你错愕哭泣

我冰冷身体

拥抱不了你

想到我让深爱的你

人海孤独旅行

我会恨自己

如此狠心

如果我变成回忆

终于没那么幸运

没机会白着头发

蹒跚牵着你

看晚霞落尽

-- Tank <如果我變成回憶>

他走了

他走了，

是癌症带走了他。

挣扎了九个月，

还是战胜不了。

我在想，

一个人需要九个月才能诞生，

一个癌症，也只需要九个月。

除了感慨还是感慨。

生命之脆弱，

让人想尽力抓住一些什么，

到头来还是没能留住什么。

他的离去，她的不捨。

她一个人离乡背井，

这么多年了，

在当地也就只有他这么一个亲人。

现在他走了，

她会不会不知所措，无所适从？

她是坚强的，

否则当初就不会一个人就这样到了美国。

他是爱她的，

一个外国人不顾一切地爱着一个亚洲人，

爱了十七年，

至死不渝 -- 最贴切不过的形容词。

现在的她，

也就只有她。

空荡荡的大房子里，

回忆像空气散布在每个角落。

睡在有他气味的床褥，

看着一起合照的相片，

冲着一个人的咖啡，

静静的坐在沙发的一角。

在她心里， 她知道，

没有了他的日子，

生活一样还是要过。

但是，意义还一样吗？

In loving memory of our dearest Uncle Keith。

Till we meet again in heaven.

~R.I.P.~

忽然之间

忽然之间
天昏地暗
世界可以忽然什么都没有
我想起了你
再想到自己
我为什么总在非常脆弱的时候
怀念你
我明白 太放不开 你的爱
太熟悉 你的关怀 分不开
想你 算是安慰 还是悲哀
而现在 就算时针 都停摆
就算生命 像尘埃 分不开
我们 也许反而 更相信爱

如果这天地
最终会消失
不想一路走来珍惜的回忆
没有你
我明白 太放不开 你的爱
太熟悉 你的关怀 分不开
想你 算是安慰 还是悲哀
而现在 就算时针 都停摆
就算生命 像尘埃 分不开
我们 也许反而 更相信爱

我明白 太放不开 你的爱
太熟悉 你的关怀 分不开
想你 算是安慰 还是悲哀
而现在 就算时针 都停摆
就算生命 像尘埃 分不开
我们 也许反而 更相信爱

时间静止

表上的秒针嘀嗒嘀嗒转，

列表里的歌一首一首播，

椅子上的我静静地坐着，

滑鼠上右手快速移动着，

键盘上手指轻盈地跳动，

屏幕上的网页不断更换，

我竟然在认真地做功课。

p/s: humming to GD's Heartbreaker.

BigBang's Latest Release

Ok, am head over heels in love with Big Bang's latest Japanese song '声をきかせて' (Let Me Hear Your Voice). A different style of Big Bang in a more matured way. N they can sing in Japanese. Another reason why they're great. ;) cuz they are, aye? Daesung's voice is stunning by the way. whoop whoop!

So here you go. 声をきかせて

假装

我们都太在乎别人怎么想，

所以都习惯武装自己。

我们都太习惯戴上面具，

所以都忘了，

最真的自己，

认识到的人，

才是最真的他。