This whole week seemed so slow yet so fast. Loads of things happened, shitty stuffs mostly. Got turned down by a few institutes for my PhD applications. Was kindda expecting that but still, can't help feeling disappointed. It made me starts to doubt myself if I'm really that 'not good' (hate to say that I'm bad, lol) that no one wants me for a PhD. *sobs* Am actually starting to doubt if PhD is the right cup of tea for me.
N then there was my introduction write-up for my final year report, which I was kindda lost in d middle of no where, n the comments I got for that were mostly bad as well, 'off-track', 'you need to stay focus on your project aim', bla bla bla. It's frustrating, considering all d work that I'd put in. Something that Jialih quoted from Mike (his supervisor) made me pondered a very true fact: 'Shit happens, it happens to everyone, but for some people, they just have more shits, n there's a reason behind.' That's very true yet the same time very depressing. Perhaps I wouldn't encounter all these setbacks if I'd have worked harder in the first place. After all, final year is no funny joke at all. Stress level is up, baby!
Anyway, the only think that sort of brightened up my day a bit would be my turtle neck jacket that I ordered from eBay. It arrived on Thursday all d way from Korea. Claps for that. Was relieved that the size fits well on me and the quality was as expected. Or else, this would turn into another crap on a pile of shit that is already stinky enough for the week.
Anyway, enough with all the whiny moaning. Gonna enjoy this precious one night off and am not gonna do anything except movies on bed. Used to do this all the time last year but only come to appreciate it when I only get to do this once in a very very very blue moon nowadays.
Am hoping to get a better next week. Fingers crossed that my project will go well and someone would take me for a PhD. SOMEONE PLEASEEEEE. *pity face*
